when you're having fun....or so they say.
I've been back at the school since the beginning of June. I'm so glad to be back...although we're facing a year of tremendous change. The high school principal (my boss) is leaving and our superintendent has been arrested for official misconduct....two things I knew were probably going to happen before I decided to return.
So why did I want to go back? A genuine love for my school and my community. After all...I graduated from MHS, my mother graduated from MHS, my grandmother graduated from MHS.
And just what do we do now in the midst of all this turmoil? We move forward. We embrace the challenges we are facing with a new outlook and with lots and lots and lots of prayer.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
It's a......
BOY! Ashley and Guy are having another little Guy in November - the due date is the 18th. She is 19 weeks along and the baby weighs 11 ounces right now. Bailey and I both got to go in with her for the ultrasound - absolutely amazing!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
25 Years of Marriage
Andy and I celebrated 25 years of marriage on May 29th. I have to say, it's been a pretty easy 25 years......thanks to him mainly. He is the most easy-going person I know. He puts up with me. He stands by me. He supports me. He's my best friend. And I thank God every day for giving me someone so wonderful.
And why do I feel guilty about that?
My sister also recently celebrated 25 years of marriage, this past January. She just left my house after spending the last six days with me. She has left her husband. He cheated on her. An affair. Can you believe that? An affair! After 25 years of marriage!
Their 25 years have been the exact opposite of mine and Andy's. It has been rough-going from the start. I always wondered how they managed to stay together, but gee whiz, after 25 years, I thought they just had it figured out and would be together forever. So 4 kids and 3 grandbabies later, they are calling it quits. He doesn't want to. He wants her to forgive him and stay with him. She told him she can forgive him, but she'll never forget....and she just wants out.
I was surprised by her this weekend. I've always been the strong one of the two sisters, even though I'm the younger one. She's never had much self-confidence......I've always had it spilling out of me. She's the quiet one.....I'm the one who always has something to say. She's the one who always calls me, crying, her heart ripped out by either something her kids or her husband had done......I was the one who always listened, always gave her advice, always encouraged her to hang in there. She has always said I was her hero and she wished she were more like me.
This week I saw a different side of her. Angry? Yes. Broken? No. She said the fact that she finally knew he was having an affair was like having a burden lifted off of her shoulders and she's ready to move on......without him. She is like a different person. Yes, sad by what she's lost.....but excited about a future life where she gets to call the shots, where she gets to finally be herself. Where she gets to be.......happy.
If it were me, and I had found out that Andy had cheated on me, I'd be, well, broken. Devastated. Angry. Vengeful........
But she is none of those things. Oh yes, she cried a few times while she was here. But the strength and dignity with which she is handling this has been mind blowing to me. I am in awe of her. I think I have a new hero.
And why do I feel guilty about that?
My sister also recently celebrated 25 years of marriage, this past January. She just left my house after spending the last six days with me. She has left her husband. He cheated on her. An affair. Can you believe that? An affair! After 25 years of marriage!
Their 25 years have been the exact opposite of mine and Andy's. It has been rough-going from the start. I always wondered how they managed to stay together, but gee whiz, after 25 years, I thought they just had it figured out and would be together forever. So 4 kids and 3 grandbabies later, they are calling it quits. He doesn't want to. He wants her to forgive him and stay with him. She told him she can forgive him, but she'll never forget....and she just wants out.
I was surprised by her this weekend. I've always been the strong one of the two sisters, even though I'm the younger one. She's never had much self-confidence......I've always had it spilling out of me. She's the quiet one.....I'm the one who always has something to say. She's the one who always calls me, crying, her heart ripped out by either something her kids or her husband had done......I was the one who always listened, always gave her advice, always encouraged her to hang in there. She has always said I was her hero and she wished she were more like me.
This week I saw a different side of her. Angry? Yes. Broken? No. She said the fact that she finally knew he was having an affair was like having a burden lifted off of her shoulders and she's ready to move on......without him. She is like a different person. Yes, sad by what she's lost.....but excited about a future life where she gets to call the shots, where she gets to finally be herself. Where she gets to be.......happy.
If it were me, and I had found out that Andy had cheated on me, I'd be, well, broken. Devastated. Angry. Vengeful........
But she is none of those things. Oh yes, she cried a few times while she was here. But the strength and dignity with which she is handling this has been mind blowing to me. I am in awe of her. I think I have a new hero.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
My Guys
Andy has always been such a great dad to the girls and now he is a great Papaw to Colin. I absolutely love to watch them together. I snapped this picture today while they played ball in the yard.
A little disappointed (okay...a LOT disappointed!)
My parents always come up over Memorial Day Weekend from Arkansas and spend the week at our house. It's always hectic week with lots of company, but I love it. I've been incredibly homesick lately to see Mom and was especially looking forward to them coming this weekend.
But.....they've had a family emergency and are unable to come. When I refer to "my parents", it's actually my mom and step-dad, William.....but he has been more of a father to me than my biological one.
Anyway, his sister-in-law has cancer and isn't expected to live. She was married to William's brother, Raymond, who died suddenly a few years ago. Mom and William are very close to her and don't feel that they can leave her at this time. In fact, Mom just called and said she is worse and is not expected to make it through the night.
If you read this, whisper a prayer for Donna.
But.....they've had a family emergency and are unable to come. When I refer to "my parents", it's actually my mom and step-dad, William.....but he has been more of a father to me than my biological one.
Anyway, his sister-in-law has cancer and isn't expected to live. She was married to William's brother, Raymond, who died suddenly a few years ago. Mom and William are very close to her and don't feel that they can leave her at this time. In fact, Mom just called and said she is worse and is not expected to make it through the night.
If you read this, whisper a prayer for Donna.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Weight Watchers
Some more news! I joined Weight Watchers in March and have lost a total of almost 13 pounds so far - I am so excited!
It's coming off slow. I have good weeks and bad weeks....good days and bad days. One week I'll lose, the next I've gained....but I am still losing overall.
It feels great!
It's coming off slow. I have good weeks and bad weeks....good days and bad days. One week I'll lose, the next I've gained....but I am still losing overall.
It feels great!
Changing jobs (again)
After much thought and discussion with Andy (and lots of prayer), I've decided to return to the school where I worked for 11 years. While I love my job at the hospital, the school tugs at my heartstrings. The lady who took my place resigned and I was asked to come back. It was too difficult to say no. And, with gas prices at $3.29/gallon, working only 4 blocks from home again is very appealing!
I've been assured by different individuals that things are different there and it looks like there are some more major changes on the horizon. I can't say much about them here just yet, but a change in administration is probably coming.
I put in my notice at the hospital last Monday, crying the whole time (I'm such a baby). My boss was disappointed, but understood. She asked if there was anything she could do to change my mind and I told her no. But the other lady in our office has been completely strange about the whole thing. She spent Monday crying, but by Tuesday she was completely horrible to me. In fact, she said some pretty ugly things to me in front of a couple of other people and I received a phone call at home that evening from one of those people, asking me just what the heck was going on down in our office.
The next morning my boss talked to me and apologized for the other lady's behavior and promised it would stop. Things were more bearable on Wednesday and Thursday, and by yesterday (Friday), it was much better. Still a little tense, but better. She is at least speaking to me now.
I am taking a week off between jobs - Mom & William will be here that week. I am going to put in a few hours at the school that week, helping to get honor day and graduation pulled together, but other than that, I am looking forward to having a week with Mom.
I've been assured by different individuals that things are different there and it looks like there are some more major changes on the horizon. I can't say much about them here just yet, but a change in administration is probably coming.
I put in my notice at the hospital last Monday, crying the whole time (I'm such a baby). My boss was disappointed, but understood. She asked if there was anything she could do to change my mind and I told her no. But the other lady in our office has been completely strange about the whole thing. She spent Monday crying, but by Tuesday she was completely horrible to me. In fact, she said some pretty ugly things to me in front of a couple of other people and I received a phone call at home that evening from one of those people, asking me just what the heck was going on down in our office.
The next morning my boss talked to me and apologized for the other lady's behavior and promised it would stop. Things were more bearable on Wednesday and Thursday, and by yesterday (Friday), it was much better. Still a little tense, but better. She is at least speaking to me now.
I am taking a week off between jobs - Mom & William will be here that week. I am going to put in a few hours at the school that week, helping to get honor day and graduation pulled together, but other than that, I am looking forward to having a week with Mom.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I haven't posted since January 7th!
Yikes! Where does the time go? It's already mid-March.
First - excellent news to report.....I'm going to be a grandma again! Ashley and Guy just found out they are expecting their second child. We are so happy and excited!
Second, some sad news. We had adopted a yorkie, named Max, but were unable to keep him because he was so rough with Sidda. This past Saturday they got into a pretty heated fight and we thought he had broken her jaw. So Andy told me he had to go (Andy was not happy about me getting him in the first place.) Anyway, I gave him to my neighbor, but she is unable to keep him either because he did the same thing to her other dog. She told me she has someone who wants him. I'm just worried about him moving so much - I don't want to traumatize him! He's really a sweet dog.....just not around other dogs.
Let's see.......what else.......my job is going great. I am getting added responsibilities all the time and am loving it. This past Tuesday was New Employee Orientation and I did the morning session. It was fun.
That's about it for now.
First - excellent news to report.....I'm going to be a grandma again! Ashley and Guy just found out they are expecting their second child. We are so happy and excited!
Second, some sad news. We had adopted a yorkie, named Max, but were unable to keep him because he was so rough with Sidda. This past Saturday they got into a pretty heated fight and we thought he had broken her jaw. So Andy told me he had to go (Andy was not happy about me getting him in the first place.) Anyway, I gave him to my neighbor, but she is unable to keep him either because he did the same thing to her other dog. She told me she has someone who wants him. I'm just worried about him moving so much - I don't want to traumatize him! He's really a sweet dog.....just not around other dogs.
Let's see.......what else.......my job is going great. I am getting added responsibilities all the time and am loving it. This past Tuesday was New Employee Orientation and I did the morning session. It was fun.
That's about it for now.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
One week down, 51 to go!
It's the end of the first week of the new year.
I had a hectic week at work, but am still loving it. There are rumors swirling (gotta love a small town) that I am returning to the school but, at this point, they are only rumors. A huge part of me misses the work and the kids - I still have kids come up and hug me and ask me to come back. Time will tell if this will happen.
Colin is growing and talking.....too much. He's been peeing in his potty for a while now, but always sitting down. Last Saturday, Andy taught him to pee standing up. So last Sunday during church, I took him to the restroom and he peed stand up. The following conversation ensued:
Colin: I'm gonna tell Papaw I peed in the potty 'tandin' up!
Me: No Colin, don' t you dare go out and tell Papaw that. You can tell him that when we get home.
Colin: But I have to tell Papaw I peed 'tandin' up!
Me: Colin Andrew, I'm warning you....don't you dare go out front and tell Papaw that.
We leave the restroom and before we are even halfway to our seat, Colin announces in a very loud voice, "Hey Papaw! I peed in the potty 'tandin' up!"
Good Gravy.
We are also at the end of our first week of our 37 Days of Consecration at church, which I am thoroughly enjoying. We are reading the New Testmament through during this time. I got behind yesterday, but am all caught up this evenings. It's average 6-7 chapters a day.
I also began teaching a new age group in Sunday School this week - the 10-11-12 year olds, which in this case, is a group of all girls and one boy. Today the "one boy" was absent, so it was just us females - and we had the best time! I am so glad that God has allowed me to be a part of this class - they are definitely going to be a blessing to me, as I pray that I will be to them.
Also, had a miracle happen to me today. I woke up with a horrible, nauseous headache that my Imitrex wouldn't even touch. I thought about staying home from church, but decided to go, staying only long enough to teach my class and then come back home and crawl back into bed. After I got there, I begun feeling much worse so I caught my Pastor in the hallway and asked if he would pray for me right then and there. He did and immediately I was healed. I want to give God praise for touching me in such a great way!
If you read my blog, may your second week of the 2007 be blessed!
I had a hectic week at work, but am still loving it. There are rumors swirling (gotta love a small town) that I am returning to the school but, at this point, they are only rumors. A huge part of me misses the work and the kids - I still have kids come up and hug me and ask me to come back. Time will tell if this will happen.
Colin is growing and talking.....too much. He's been peeing in his potty for a while now, but always sitting down. Last Saturday, Andy taught him to pee standing up. So last Sunday during church, I took him to the restroom and he peed stand up. The following conversation ensued:
Colin: I'm gonna tell Papaw I peed in the potty 'tandin' up!
Me: No Colin, don' t you dare go out and tell Papaw that. You can tell him that when we get home.
Colin: But I have to tell Papaw I peed 'tandin' up!
Me: Colin Andrew, I'm warning you....don't you dare go out front and tell Papaw that.
We leave the restroom and before we are even halfway to our seat, Colin announces in a very loud voice, "Hey Papaw! I peed in the potty 'tandin' up!"
Good Gravy.
We are also at the end of our first week of our 37 Days of Consecration at church, which I am thoroughly enjoying. We are reading the New Testmament through during this time. I got behind yesterday, but am all caught up this evenings. It's average 6-7 chapters a day.
I also began teaching a new age group in Sunday School this week - the 10-11-12 year olds, which in this case, is a group of all girls and one boy. Today the "one boy" was absent, so it was just us females - and we had the best time! I am so glad that God has allowed me to be a part of this class - they are definitely going to be a blessing to me, as I pray that I will be to them.
Also, had a miracle happen to me today. I woke up with a horrible, nauseous headache that my Imitrex wouldn't even touch. I thought about staying home from church, but decided to go, staying only long enough to teach my class and then come back home and crawl back into bed. After I got there, I begun feeling much worse so I caught my Pastor in the hallway and asked if he would pray for me right then and there. He did and immediately I was healed. I want to give God praise for touching me in such a great way!
If you read my blog, may your second week of the 2007 be blessed!
Monday, January 01, 2007
January 1, 2007 - 37 Days of Consecration
37 Days of Consecration begins today at our church. I am totally looking foward to taking this opportunity to draw closer to God and find His direction for my life. Today began with prayer and reading Matthew, Chapters 1-9.....it will also be a day of fasting. By the end of these 37 days, we will have read the New Testament in it's entirety. The 37 days signify 10% of the year.
I am also excited because I have been given a new Sunday School class - ages 10, 11 and 12....it's a class that consists of mostly girls and they are excited that I'm going to be their teacher. This makes about 22 years of teaching Sunday School class for me and is something that I continue to hold dear to my heart. I can recall all my Sunday School teachers fondly and always pray that I am making a positive impact in the lives of these children.
On a personal note, what would New Year's be without a resolution to lose weight and get into shape? I have a couple of incentives this year....my 25th wedding anniversary and 25-year class reunion are both coming up in May. Twenty-five years?! Where has the time gone?
I wish everyone who reads my blog a very happy, healthy and prosperous 2007!
I am also excited because I have been given a new Sunday School class - ages 10, 11 and 12....it's a class that consists of mostly girls and they are excited that I'm going to be their teacher. This makes about 22 years of teaching Sunday School class for me and is something that I continue to hold dear to my heart. I can recall all my Sunday School teachers fondly and always pray that I am making a positive impact in the lives of these children.
On a personal note, what would New Year's be without a resolution to lose weight and get into shape? I have a couple of incentives this year....my 25th wedding anniversary and 25-year class reunion are both coming up in May. Twenty-five years?! Where has the time gone?
I wish everyone who reads my blog a very happy, healthy and prosperous 2007!
Monday, December 25, 2006
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Time to play catch up
Okay, I haven't blogged for a while, so here goes.
Life is going along pretty well for us right now. I am truly looking forward to celebrating Christmas. We had our play at church last night and will be having an encore performance at 1:30 this afternoon. The kids did a great job last night and the man from our church who plays "Uncle Yule" really made the play - southern accent and all! I was impressed!
I'm almost finished with my shopping - still need to pick up a couple of things for Ashley, Bailey and Andy. I haven't wrapped anything though - I may assign that job to Andy! LOL He's a much better wrapper than me.
I am so in love with our newest family member, Sidda. She is absolutely a perfect fit for our family. I took her the groomer last week though and asked for her hair to be cut "shorter"....he shaved her! Except for her head and legs - she kind of has this poodle cut thing going on. I'll be so glad when it grows out!
My new job continues to be really good. It's nice to not be so stressed all the time. I can definitely tell that I'm my old self again.
Merry Christmas to everyone!
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Fall and Little Boys
Andy spent part of his morning yesterday raking and re-raking the leaves in the yard so that Colin and the neighbor boys could play in them. I went out to check on them at one point and Colin yelled "Gamma - jump in da weaves!"..........so I did. Sorry, no picture of that one, but I did snap one of Colin!
Bailey
Bailey has decided to quit school. This is an issue we've been dealing with over the last few weeks. She is constantly in tears and over-stressed. She came to my office this past Monday to talk....well, to talk between sobs. She seems to be having a really difficult time transitioning from high school life to college life. I won't go into details here.
I told her this is the time in her life to discover what it is she really wants to do....and if she needs time off from school, then just do it. Of course, I've had a couple of people tell me that I should have made her tough out at least this first semester, but I just didn't have the heart. I do hate the fact that she will be losing $5800 in scholarship money, but bottom line, it's her decision.
So, she is working and keeping my house clean (hey, this may not be so bad after all!). And, I have to say, she seems much more like her old self, which is always a good thing. She seems much more relaxed and told me it feels like a weight has been lifted off her shoulders.
I told her this is the time in her life to discover what it is she really wants to do....and if she needs time off from school, then just do it. Of course, I've had a couple of people tell me that I should have made her tough out at least this first semester, but I just didn't have the heart. I do hate the fact that she will be losing $5800 in scholarship money, but bottom line, it's her decision.
So, she is working and keeping my house clean (hey, this may not be so bad after all!). And, I have to say, she seems much more like her old self, which is always a good thing. She seems much more relaxed and told me it feels like a weight has been lifted off her shoulders.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
No real news here....
Nothing really to report, just thought I'd come in and type a little bit.
My parents are in from Arkansas - they'll be here through next Monday. They always stay at our house while they're here - although yesterday they left to spend two nights at Mom's sister's house in Seymour. They'll be back here tomorrow.
Work is going great. Our manager is going on vacation and won't be back until next Wednesday. Makes me a little nervous, knowing she won't be there, but I know we'll be fine. That will leave me and the other lady to cover our office. Hopefully nothing over-the-top will happen while she's gone.
Moms in Touch is feeding the teachers at school today because it is Parent/Teacher Conferences. We've been doing this for years. Mom made ham salad for me to take and I baked cookies shaped like pumpkins last night....even used orange icing for the pumpkin and green icing for the stems. They are so pretty - almost hate to eat them!
I was reminded yesterday of how thankful I am to have a husband like Andy. When I listen to other women vent about their spouses, it always makes me more appreciative. Although, Andy is on vacation this week so is getting to sleep in every morning....which I think is totally unfair! LOL
My parents are in from Arkansas - they'll be here through next Monday. They always stay at our house while they're here - although yesterday they left to spend two nights at Mom's sister's house in Seymour. They'll be back here tomorrow.
Work is going great. Our manager is going on vacation and won't be back until next Wednesday. Makes me a little nervous, knowing she won't be there, but I know we'll be fine. That will leave me and the other lady to cover our office. Hopefully nothing over-the-top will happen while she's gone.
Moms in Touch is feeding the teachers at school today because it is Parent/Teacher Conferences. We've been doing this for years. Mom made ham salad for me to take and I baked cookies shaped like pumpkins last night....even used orange icing for the pumpkin and green icing for the stems. They are so pretty - almost hate to eat them!
I was reminded yesterday of how thankful I am to have a husband like Andy. When I listen to other women vent about their spouses, it always makes me more appreciative. Although, Andy is on vacation this week so is getting to sleep in every morning....which I think is totally unfair! LOL
Friday, October 13, 2006
My Parents Are Coming! My Parents Are Coming!
My parents will be here this afternoon. They are spending a week and a half with us - I am so excited! I miss them so much. It's hard not being able to see them every day.
I spent part of last night getting my house ready. Of course, it's just my parents, so they don't expect it to be spotless. And it was already pretty much picked up - it just need a little lift. I did scrub the bathroom that they'll be using and washed the bed linens for them.
Also, last night Bailey and I watched "The Break-Up" with Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn....total waste of time! Blech. Horrible. Ick. Did I mention I didn't like it? What a freaky ending.
Tomorrow is our family reunion - Mom's side of the family, which I am totally looking forward to. They are such a beautiful extended family. So.......normal. As compared to my dad's side of the family, which is so........dysfunctional. I like to think that Andy and I have taken after Mom's side....although there may be people who would disagree! LOL
We're having absolutely gorgeous weather. Cool, crisp and clear. Beautiful.
I spent part of last night getting my house ready. Of course, it's just my parents, so they don't expect it to be spotless. And it was already pretty much picked up - it just need a little lift. I did scrub the bathroom that they'll be using and washed the bed linens for them.
Also, last night Bailey and I watched "The Break-Up" with Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn....total waste of time! Blech. Horrible. Ick. Did I mention I didn't like it? What a freaky ending.
Tomorrow is our family reunion - Mom's side of the family, which I am totally looking forward to. They are such a beautiful extended family. So.......normal. As compared to my dad's side of the family, which is so........dysfunctional. I like to think that Andy and I have taken after Mom's side....although there may be people who would disagree! LOL
We're having absolutely gorgeous weather. Cool, crisp and clear. Beautiful.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
I got a phone call.....
at 6:45 am on Tuesday morning. It was the lady who took my place at the school. She was upset and said she needed to meet with me, that she "can't handle all of this".
So I went there after I got off work. Things are bad there. There's been a climate control study conducted on our principal - which came back terribly negative. She said he's about to have a breakdown. She said the kids are out of control and there's no discipline, basically the animals are running the zoo.
Then we moved on to the accounting part. She has a stack of bills she hasn't paid yet because she "doesn't have time". Hello? You have to make time to do that - the extra-curricular bills have to be paid. She has bills that she doesn't have receipts for because either the teachers haven't given them to her or she has lost them. She's been keying in the checks/deposits into the computer system wrong. She hasn't been filling out the proper paperwork to pay refs for the games. Yikes. I told her I would come in and help her get organized, but they will have to pay me to do it....which I doubt the superintendent would be willing to do.
My main concern is the accounting part. She really just doesn't know what she's doing and I feel really bad for her. She was placed in a job that she simply isn't qualified to do.
She told me the library aide is quitting and if she does, she would like to take her job and thinks I need to come back and take my job back over. Yeah. Right. I'll be sure and do that right away. I don't think it's totally out of the question, but they would have to ask me to come back and make it worth my while financially. Which won't happen.
I told her to call the corporation treasurer, who works out of the superintendent's office, and meet with her. I told her to show her everything she has shown me and tell her everything she has told me, and that together they would get it straightened out.
So I went there after I got off work. Things are bad there. There's been a climate control study conducted on our principal - which came back terribly negative. She said he's about to have a breakdown. She said the kids are out of control and there's no discipline, basically the animals are running the zoo.
Then we moved on to the accounting part. She has a stack of bills she hasn't paid yet because she "doesn't have time". Hello? You have to make time to do that - the extra-curricular bills have to be paid. She has bills that she doesn't have receipts for because either the teachers haven't given them to her or she has lost them. She's been keying in the checks/deposits into the computer system wrong. She hasn't been filling out the proper paperwork to pay refs for the games. Yikes. I told her I would come in and help her get organized, but they will have to pay me to do it....which I doubt the superintendent would be willing to do.
My main concern is the accounting part. She really just doesn't know what she's doing and I feel really bad for her. She was placed in a job that she simply isn't qualified to do.
She told me the library aide is quitting and if she does, she would like to take her job and thinks I need to come back and take my job back over. Yeah. Right. I'll be sure and do that right away. I don't think it's totally out of the question, but they would have to ask me to come back and make it worth my while financially. Which won't happen.
I told her to call the corporation treasurer, who works out of the superintendent's office, and meet with her. I told her to show her everything she has shown me and tell her everything she has told me, and that together they would get it straightened out.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Nightmare
I rarely have nightmares....maybe one every few years. Last night was one of those rare occasions. I woke myself up screaming - Andy said he had been trying to get me to wake up but couldn't.
I was being held in a house by some guy I didn't know, but he would allow me to go out into the yard. I was planning my escape when his "insane" brother came out with a club and two other guys. I knew they were going to try to kill me so I was trying to get around them to get back in the house - I knew I would be safe if I could just get back inside.
Instead, as I tried to slip past them, they attacked - one of them grabbed me and brought the club down onto my head.....that's when I woke up screaming.
Of course, I had a hard time going back to sleep after that. Andy was sweet and held me until I drifted back off.
It just seemed so real. Ugh. I felt creepy all day today.
I wonder if it meant anything?
I was being held in a house by some guy I didn't know, but he would allow me to go out into the yard. I was planning my escape when his "insane" brother came out with a club and two other guys. I knew they were going to try to kill me so I was trying to get around them to get back in the house - I knew I would be safe if I could just get back inside.
Instead, as I tried to slip past them, they attacked - one of them grabbed me and brought the club down onto my head.....that's when I woke up screaming.
Of course, I had a hard time going back to sleep after that. Andy was sweet and held me until I drifted back off.
It just seemed so real. Ugh. I felt creepy all day today.
I wonder if it meant anything?
Saturday, September 23, 2006
New job, No regrets
I haven't posted in a while, so thought maybe I'd better put something in here.
I love my new job....did you all hear that? Love it, love it, love it! It's such a perfect fit for me. I've already implemented a couple of new ideas that my supervisor has approved and seems to be happy with. I'm working my butt off to impress everyone - my goal is to move up. Actually, my goal is be on the 4th floor - where the "initials" all work....CEO, CCO, CFO, COO, etc.
I love the two ladies I work with. They have gone out of the way to make me feel welcome and to spend lots of time training me. I have to say, it seems like I'm picking things up pretty quickly and my old self-confidence is coming back.
I had been warned by a couple of different people about one of those ladies (to watch my back), but, for now, I see nothing of what they were talking about it. I'm not going to let others opinions influence me. After coming out of the situation I just did at my other job, I want nothing but peace and harmony here and that's what I'm striving for.
About my "old" job. Phone calls, e-mails, etc.....you name it...I'm getting them weekly from friends and former co-workers , although it has slowed down a bit. Sounds like things are a bit in turmoil over there. Someone even told me yesterday that my former boss said he would give me part of his salary to come back. Yeah. Right. I've also been told there's kind of a battle of words going on about "who's fault" it is that I left.
Bottom line...it's nobody's fault. I chose to leave because I didn't like the person I was becoming....negative, grouchy, always stressed out. And, quite frankly, I didn't feel appreciated. Yes, there were people who helped my decision along, but to say it was any one person's fault is not fair to anyone who is still there.
The person I talked to last night said "Ever since you left, it's like all the goodness and sweetness is gone from the office and all that's left is lying and back-stabbing."
And I almost feel guilty that I feel so content in my new job. Almost.
I love my new job....did you all hear that? Love it, love it, love it! It's such a perfect fit for me. I've already implemented a couple of new ideas that my supervisor has approved and seems to be happy with. I'm working my butt off to impress everyone - my goal is to move up. Actually, my goal is be on the 4th floor - where the "initials" all work....CEO, CCO, CFO, COO, etc.
I love the two ladies I work with. They have gone out of the way to make me feel welcome and to spend lots of time training me. I have to say, it seems like I'm picking things up pretty quickly and my old self-confidence is coming back.
I had been warned by a couple of different people about one of those ladies (to watch my back), but, for now, I see nothing of what they were talking about it. I'm not going to let others opinions influence me. After coming out of the situation I just did at my other job, I want nothing but peace and harmony here and that's what I'm striving for.
About my "old" job. Phone calls, e-mails, etc.....you name it...I'm getting them weekly from friends and former co-workers , although it has slowed down a bit. Sounds like things are a bit in turmoil over there. Someone even told me yesterday that my former boss said he would give me part of his salary to come back. Yeah. Right. I've also been told there's kind of a battle of words going on about "who's fault" it is that I left.
Bottom line...it's nobody's fault. I chose to leave because I didn't like the person I was becoming....negative, grouchy, always stressed out. And, quite frankly, I didn't feel appreciated. Yes, there were people who helped my decision along, but to say it was any one person's fault is not fair to anyone who is still there.
The person I talked to last night said "Ever since you left, it's like all the goodness and sweetness is gone from the office and all that's left is lying and back-stabbing."
And I almost feel guilty that I feel so content in my new job. Almost.
Monday, August 21, 2006
New Job Update
Well, I've been at my new job for 6 days now. Last week was wonderful. It felt so good to come home stress free every evening. I love the drive - about 30 minutes there, 30 minutes back.
Then this morning, I was sitting at my desk, and had this horrible feeling of "homesickness" for the school. I could have cried if I had allowed myself. No feeling of regret or anything like that, just missing everyone. I think it finally hit me that I don't really work there anymore.
Anyway, the job is really going great. I feel like I'm catching onto things pretty quick. One of the department managers has already talked to my boss and told her that she was impressed with me - that I seem to "really be on top of things". ~~~can't you just hear my head growing~~~
Tomorrow we have four new hires coming in for their pre-hire paperwork, then two more on Wednesday. I'm going to watch the other girl in the office do the four tomorrow, then on Wednesday she's going to let me do them while she watches me. I know that I can do it but I would be a lot more comfortable if I knew she wasn't going to be standing over my shoulder. Don't get me wrong, I understand why she's doing it, but I know I'd do a better job without an audience.....stage fright, I guess.
Anyway, my "goal" is definitely to move up in the ranks.....I want to be on the 4th floor with the "initials"....the CEO, CFO, COO, CCO....as administrative assistant to one of them, I don't care which one. :-)
Bailey started her classes today, too. After a couple of room mix-ups (one which caused her to miss an entire class), she had a really good day and has already made some friends.
Then this morning, I was sitting at my desk, and had this horrible feeling of "homesickness" for the school. I could have cried if I had allowed myself. No feeling of regret or anything like that, just missing everyone. I think it finally hit me that I don't really work there anymore.
Anyway, the job is really going great. I feel like I'm catching onto things pretty quick. One of the department managers has already talked to my boss and told her that she was impressed with me - that I seem to "really be on top of things". ~~~can't you just hear my head growing~~~
Tomorrow we have four new hires coming in for their pre-hire paperwork, then two more on Wednesday. I'm going to watch the other girl in the office do the four tomorrow, then on Wednesday she's going to let me do them while she watches me. I know that I can do it but I would be a lot more comfortable if I knew she wasn't going to be standing over my shoulder. Don't get me wrong, I understand why she's doing it, but I know I'd do a better job without an audience.....stage fright, I guess.
Anyway, my "goal" is definitely to move up in the ranks.....I want to be on the 4th floor with the "initials"....the CEO, CFO, COO, CCO....as administrative assistant to one of them, I don't care which one. :-)
Bailey started her classes today, too. After a couple of room mix-ups (one which caused her to miss an entire class), she had a really good day and has already made some friends.
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